Sunday, November 13, 2011

Bliss and Some Days, I Feel Like I'm Failing

Some of you noticed that my bliss pictures stopped on Tuesday last week and wondered what was going on.  Am I okay?  What is happening?  The truth is, life was just...insane.

I've done it to myself really, so how do I have a right to complain?  Lately my ambition has far exceeded my ability and time (actually I shouldn't say "lately", because it's more like "all of 2011"), so I'm really not doing anything well.  ANYTHING.  AT ALL. 

Except sleeping-especially when I'm passing out on the couch from exhaustion at 7pm one day this week, which is exactly what I did.

Fuzzy PJs
Wednesday's Bliss: Cute fuzzy pjs!

You see, awhile ago I signed up for a course at work about assistive technology, thinking that it would give me all sorts of fantastic practical ways to use software with kids I help at school.  Besides, I get paid, so I was thinking about Christmas, the fact that John is on medical leave, and teachers could still go on strike.  For three hours every Tuesday, I am in an online classroom.  Plus there's homework.

In the midst of courses and work and writing I needed to put together and send off, a student at school asked if *I* would bake his birthday cake, which happened to be SMACK in the middle of the craziest part of the week.  "A white cake," he smiled, "with strawberry frosting."

How the heck was I going to do that when I had a mere 3 hours between work and a class, plus so much else to do? 

You are ALL going to love this.

I can't believe I'm saying this but YES, cake mixes are Bliss too. 
Yes.  I bought a cake mix. I didn't want to do icing though, so I bought some whipping cream and mixed it with 1/2 cup pureed strawberries, which turned out to be a really quick and delicious 'icing'.  First you whip the cream, add a little sugar to taste, then fold in the pureed strawberries.  It's quite delicious and cuts the sweetness of the cake. 

Hey, even those of us who like things from scratch need shortcuts sometimes.  I even made frozen pre-packaged perogies one night out of desperation.  

On Wednesday night I attended an event in Vancouver, which meant I went to work all day, made a run for the ferry, had an amazing dinner out with fellow Vancouver bloggers and a sleepover at a friend's house, then caught the first ferry back to the Sunshine Coast and straight back to work. Discoveries?  Ferry toast is disgusting.  Ferry breakfast is ridiculously expensive, at almost $10 for two pieces of toast, a small carton of milk, a banana, and a coffee.  Also, I can run on a ridiculously small amount of sleep.

Further, Vancouver has almost no traffic at 6 am.

Later that afternoon, I went golfing with a bunch of teenagers and ended up hauling a heavy golf bag all over the place.  Which actually sounds like torture because we were picking our way through all the Canada goose poop and losing balls in the ponds, but it was actually a beautiful day. I even learned how to hit a golf ball properly. 

The Driving Range in November
Thursday's Bliss: at the driving range in the sunshine without a coat in November. It was beautiful!

Throughout the week  there were emails that needed to be answered, I owed people things like videos and photos, there were articles and recipes that had to be submitted like three days ago, and I have friends and family who also needed my time. It just kept piling and piling up into a never ending to-do list until  I found myself laying on the couch Saturday night, just wishing it would all STOP.

All of it

I actually longed for the days when I first began blogging and it was a fun, creative outlet, not a job with deadlines and responsibility and people counting on me.  Don't get me wrong, I LOVE writing, but I am finding I really need to start managing my time better.  Being more organized means Kevin and I will finally be able to get out to the Oyster Bar that I promised months ago, I'll be able to get things done around the house, and instead of becoming flakey and unreliable I'll be kicking butt and getting things done.

So as I sat there gazing at my screen, I resolved to start at that very moment, and shut Twitter off. I'm not sure how long I'm going to be gone, and I will be back briefly now and then, but I've decided I need some of that time back just to live life.  For far too long, I've whittled my days away on Twitter instead of being fully engaged at home in stuff I need to do, and as of now, I'm taking that back.   It's amazing what focus can do-just this morning I've written two recipes, answered three emails, visited a bunch of blogs to leave comments, replied to comments here, and put together two articles.  I still have a lot to catch up on but without a distraction, I have lots I can accomplish.

Now THAT is Bliss.

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